So I am the A-hole, and here is the back story to my hunt:
I have been hunting for a few years now. I took up the sport as a way to get back outdoors after breaking my leg very seriously and had started in a ground blind for 3 seasons. I have had the opportunity to shoot at deer a couple of times and up until this season I have not shot a deer, sometimes the deer are too far away, not a good shot, etc, so I have passed. I missed a doe early on this year that was perfect broadside at 30 yards, went back evaluated my equipment, practice shot a lot and came to the conclusion that I just missed - I guess it happens when the heart is racing out of my chest. In November I was hunting in a blind and out wandered a buck a little less than 20 yards, so I took that shot, and was my first deer harvested - this was not the shed buck, just my first harvest after 3 seasons of hunting. Fast forward to winter bow and I had a shot at a doe first day of winter bow that I passed on because she had 2 yearlings with her. The young deer would probably do alright without the doe but I felt passing that show was the right thing to do. As the season went on, I was patterning the deer deeper into the woods and I had an opportunity to hunt a tree stand deeper in the woods. My first sit in a tree stand ever hunting, and I had 2 deer walking about 30-40 yards down a trail. Front one was a doe, and there was a larger deer that I thought was a doe walking behind. The larger doe stopped perfect broadside and I decided to take the shot on the deer walking in the back. The deer ran off and dropped within 20 yards. I drag the deer out of the woods to the clearing and as I go to gut the deer I realized the doe had balls to my suprise. I then check out the head and burried in the fur are small pedicles that had just started to scab over. Without looking into the fur you wouldn't see it. Not that it makes a tremendous difference, but this was zone 51 in the pines. Given the shot again, I would take it every time because it was a good size deer, and I was looking to fill the freezer late in the season. There was no sign that he was a buck until inspecting very closely.
So I am that A-hole, but proud that I was able to harvest two deer this year for my family, and it was the first deer that I completely processed myself.