Thankful but Thanksgiving was Tough

[NHBuck]

Wednesday night at 2335 I said good by to my Bonniegirl. She was my12 yo  Golden Retriever. So very thankful that we had 12 years with her. This past Sun thru Wed I noticed her drinking more water than usual and she was only eating the little bit of wet food we mix in with her dry food. Wednesday morning at 430 something caused me to wake up. I walked in the dinning room and Bonnie was laying on the floor, head up so I pet her and turned on the coffee. I went back to her and her head was down and she was sleeping. Decided to lay next to her for a minute because I had a gut feeling we were dealing with cancer due to past experience and the sudden excessive water consumption. I laid next to her kissed her head, no movement, put my arm around her petting her and no movement. Totally out of character because if you laid next to her or pet her she would either get up and play or raise her head to see what was going on. I felt her chest for 15 sec or so and no rise and fall. I kissed her head walked into the bedroom and told my wife I think we just lost Bonniegirl. She rockets out of bed as I tell her what happened. I turn to go back in the dinning room which our master bedroom is off of I say oops never mind as Bonniegirl lifted her head. Laid back down with her for a bit and noticed her belly felt firmer than usual. Rest of day was fairly normal with her.

 

Wed night she refused her dinner all together for the first time in her life and I knew the end was near. About 9pm I noticed she was groaning a bit when she would lay down and try to get comfortable. Put her on leash thinking maybe she was bound up a bit as we gave her an extra pain pill for her arthritis Tuesday night. She  did a little business then just laid on the lawn. I knew then it would not be long. I sent  the wife inside with the other dog and I jut laid beside her on the grass, petting her talking about old times and telling her it was ok to go. After 10 min or so she needed a little help to get up and inside we went. Then it started every few minutes she would reposition and groan. Told the family to spend a few minutes with her as I was taking her to the emergency vet and if at all possible my intention is to bring her home but I have a gut feeling she isn't coming home. Loaded her into the truck for our last ride together and she went down hill on 15 20 min ride to vet. When we got there she didn't even try to get up when I opened the door. Vet examined her and the firmness I felt earlier in the day was blood and a tumor. I felt it and just told the vet there is only 1 option, she said she was going to recommend it was time to say goodbye and Bonnie was in pain and at best might have a day or 2 of pain if I were to take her home. However, if the tumor ruptured besides the pain, it would cause her to bleed out before I could pick her up and get her to my car.  She also guessed that Bonnie probably for the last 2  weeks or so was bleeding ever so slightly from the mass and when I laid with her in the morning it had probably had started bleeding heavier and if I hadn't got up from laying with her and spoke to the wife, she probably would have slipped away then. However, when she felt me get up and then heard my voice telling the wife to get up she probably repositioned slightly to allow her lungs to expand. But like she said nobody really knows.  We have been saying the last year that every day was a blessing. Last 1.5 to 2yrs she started with arthritis in her hips and had a slight acl tear at 9 years old when she slipped on ice. Other than that 0 health issues. What made it easier than expected was she had a great life, spoiled rotten and was loved more than the average person would be loved in 2 or 3 lifetimes. Don't get me wrong tears were shed. Wife and oldest boy just out of the service were worried and wanted me to take someone with me . I told them thanks but this is just me and my girl time. My heart will always have a piece of Gold in it.

[Glasswater Outdoors]

Sorry to hear that. It is always tough

[Rusty]

Oh no, that's so hard.  Ours is 14 and she is showing signs of her age.  It really sucks, their lives are too short.   

[Chicken Little]

May God ease your pain and sadness and may you find comdort in him. Faithful companions are the best...unconditional love.

[Rdfhunter]

Rough story .. I know the pain

 

 

Rest easy Bonnie until the two of you are together again ..

[T10R4]

Sorry for your loss, I know that pain well...

[Lady Bird]

Im sorry for yor loss.  It's the hardest thing you have to do.  She was a beautiful dog. 

[jerseyhunter]

Sorry for your loss, but I have bad news for you, even after 40 yrs the memories and pain will come back. I vowed then to never own a dog. Maybe I'll change my mind in another 10 yrs, as I love all animals except cats. On a brighter note He's frolicking with my Lab named Buck in an endless field of dreams.

[Woodrufflou]

Sorry to hear that. Such a terrible feeling. I know exactly how you feel

[10pt]

Sorry for your loss. Sounds like he lived a great life.

[outdoorslife]

Im sorry for your loss I wish they lived longer. Shes a gorgeous retriever

 

 

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Edited November 28, 2015 by outdoorslife

[Haskell_Hunter]

Sorry for your loss.  Remember the good times.

[BowhunterNJ]

Sorry for your loss, never easy going through that.

[Axiom]

Im right behind ya dude.. My buddy of ten years, a leonberger, has lung cancer .. it wont be long now ..

[Meshach]

Sorry to hear that... we are on our 5th golden.. they are sweet hearts..   its hard yo say goodbye